Little response to the silence
How’s everyone doing? It’s been a long hiatus, at least in my own timespace. A lot had happened. It’s been an overwhelming month and I am trying to write again, hopefully documenting my life wouldnt be such a painful process this time around. Some snippets would be nice, dont ya all think?
» I graduated! Will post some pictures soon. My dad was here to attend my graduation. I felt bad because he came right in the middle while I was having my finals and the schedule pretty much jammed up. We missed out on a couple of places but overall I think everything went pretty great. I love my dad.
» I broke up with Karen. It was one of those thing where nothing goes wrong but yet everything seems to be misplaced terribly. We didnt fight, we didnt shout at each other. One thing that I regretted much was that I never really put much attention on her whenever we get the chance to meet during one of those rare summer holidays. She is supposed to be THE one for me, and I really believed that when we were together. I love you.
» I got hired as a web developer for a company called Knowledge Marketing. Started working on the last wednesday and everything went pretty well I must say. The office is like 31 miles off Lincoln though, so I am looking for a car to save myself from having to wake up so early just to catch the damn bus.
» Then there’s this girl. Hey you, just got off the phone with you and you must be sleeping your afternoon away like a fat pig right now. I think I owe you an honest, bottom-of-my-heart apology. After got off the phone just now, I really thought I blew it this time for good. At one point I can still recall you said we were equal and that you were having hard time making a choice between me and him. But after my dramatic, disgusting and childish gestures during the course of the last few days, you said its best for us to start all over again, just to get to know each other better. I regretted very much so. Maybe its for the best. It just amazes me how wrong thing can go sometimes when you’re not in the right state of mind.
I’ve gone 48 hours with only 6 hours of sleep. Everyone tells me I’m living a great life with the new job and all. I certainly believe that I do. Except that I dont. Not because I broke up with my gf, not because I dont like my job and certainly not because of how thing goes with that girl. I am just frustrated that I kept messing things up and for the worst part it hurt people around me and in some cases made them felt like they didnt even know me anymore.
Like I am so fcuking special or anything. Turns out I’m just a creep.
